after las nite....

have i told u that
ur my star
a shine in the dark
u lift me up
wen m feeling down
and m lost
wen ur not with me
i belong to u
and u belong to me
all tat we are
is more than i cud
hav ever dreamed
before u entered my life
i love u frm the very start
with just a smile
you claimed my heart
now i intend to giv u my love everyday
i wan to make u happy in everyway
because i love u..

dedicated to tat person......

a lover asked his beloved.....
u love urself more than u love me?
and i replied.......
i died to myself and i lived fer u...
i've disappeared frm myself and my altitude...
i'm present only fer u
i forgot all my learnings...
but from u
i became a scholar
i've lost all my strengh....
but from ur power
i'm able....
i love myself
i love u
i love u
i love myself.....

findin a reason to make her fall fer me......

your my lover...cum to my side...
i'll open the gate to ur love..
cum settle with me...
let us be neighbours in the stars..
you've been hiding so long
aimlessly driftin in the sea of my love...
even so you've always been connected to me
concieled reveiled
in the known in the indian menefeast
and in life itself
you've been a prisoner of the lil pawn....
cum merge with me..
leave tis world of ignorance
be with me
i'll open the gate to ur love.....

embarrassment a lover faces....

a lover knows only humiliality.....
i hav no choice...
i steal into your alley at nite....
i hav no choice...
i long to kiss every lock of your hair
dun forget,i'm left with no choice
iun my fancy love fer u...
i long to break the chains
of my imprisonment....
i hav no choice...

reason i dun propose the gal i actually love...

Last night, today, tonight I've thought of you,
My fear of loving you, my fear of pain,
My own reluctance soon to love again,
And why i often flee what i pursue.

I've thought: if i could make time disappear,
Prune past and future, make the moments flower,
Lobotomize all save this single hour,
Then i could love with neither hope nor fear.

But when i pause to watch the moment flow,
Beneath i see eternity and space,
So thin a moving film is time and place,
Removing us, and all i love and know.
I cannot but anticipate the end:
Desire a lover, yet fear to lose YOU.

if at all there was a livin spine in this world den it has to be u raj..

if at all i cud rewind time...
jst to correct my mistakes....
jst to keep his pride n dignity high up
wich i as a younger bro couldnt at all keep it....

if at all i didnt had him as my
shell...spine...
or even in my life....
where wud i b today?

why is it we think twice
to even hug or kiss
our love ones
but no wastage of kissin our partners
who we jst gotta knw....
is it cause we r shy?
or is it cause we jst dun wana knw nethin bout our spines?

but then why do u still care fer me so much wen i hav disspointed u so much?
why is ur heart so dam big wich can b able to forgive n forget all my mistakes?
m i tis lucky to hav en elder bro like u or
is it all elder brothers like tis?
u always tot bout my happiness n my future
but wat did i do in return fer u to b tis gud to me?

yes...
i cant picture my life today if it wasnt cz of u
tomorro if at all i bcum the richest man
its cause of u...
love?
if at all i love ne1 else in this world bsides me
has to 2 ppl in my life wich i love the mst....

n those 2 ppl r :-
sunil n u raj.....
maybe i was stupid enuf to not say it b4 to u both
but today rite here n now...m sayin it
love u raj
love u sunil...
love u guys both...

to the guy wich made the past 3mths of mine worth lookin fer every single second....

tis cud b soundin gayish or maybe fucked bro...
but the truth is by jst sayin tanks...
aint gona do enuf fer wat u've done
or maybe did in tis 3mths....

all gud times hav endings...
theres no doubt in tat...
but
weneva m with u...
u always made me felt like
time was jst an ordinary word
frm an english dictionary
but the bondin between us
was far way frm bein able to
define describe or even meant

n in tis 3mths itself....
u've neva made me felt lonely
or made me felt ur weakness
as u always manage to fix a smile at ur face
thou u hav shit to handle back there...
but in tat time......
u've made me realise the
importance of
our blood n bondin wich we have.....

once again tanks bro fer always bein there.....

if at all i cud ever b in love....

1. do i even care bout myself?
2. do i even love myself?
3. do i even understand myself?
4. do i even know where n to whom i belong to?

the answer to those questions is....

• m still tryin to figure out the answers...the truth is i dun think i can b able to find the answers as m scared of commitments in my life.......if at all mohabatein is true...den i shall hav no regrets on the exceptional love wich i had fer her..cz wen i msged her i didnt expect her to b in love with me like how i was towards her...its the same as i didnt expect her to hav nething fer me wen we 1st started tokin in msn...but i will b happy cz i still hav memories of her praisin me n her compliments n we still do chat in msn....

felt the beauty of love again

As You Smiled From A Distance,
You Glowed So Bright
From Distance Apart You Coloured My Colourless Soul,
You Took My Breath Away On That Very Moment.

The Moment I Felt The Cold Breeze In The Air,
As I Walk I Felt My Trembling Knees,
Weak & Mindless
As I Frame Myself To Shame.

Your Starry Beautiful Eyes,
As I Stare Into Them,
Its Killing Me Softly The Very Moment
The Moment I Thought
Without You; You're The Person Of My Dreams.

Of Course I know I Can, But I Must Give
My Heart Room To Tell It As It Seems.

Romance Must Have A Language Fit For Feeling
More Than Fits Between The Earth And Sky.
For Love There Cannot Be A Floor Or Ceiling:
My Love Goes Down Too Deep And Flies Too High.

So When I Say I Cannot Live Without You,
Know I Can't Imagine So Much Pain;
And When I Claim To Always Dream About You,
Well, Know The Moon Is Happy Once Again.
The Sun Reveals Cold Truths For All To See,
But I Must Light My Love With Poetry.

videos over the weekend will b up soon...patience is bitter but the fruit is sweeter

the best phrase is...

no matter how much we try to make dem white like us..they will always remain black like kicap...

tryin hard to find a proper sentence to fit in tis fucked up blog.......:p